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i heart question mark - taylor swift


i dont know what to wrote about. nothing interesting is going on.


well,i guess theres always valentines day. too bad i hate it with a burning passion. its so stupid. why have a day where you can see boyfriends showering their girls with roses and chocolates everywhere you go? it just makes people who don't HAVE a boyfriend or a girlfriend feel terrible,because they get stuck with getting something from their parents. i really hate it. ive never had any sort of relationship on valentines day,except with nick. we watched movies and ate hershey kisses the whole time,but it was nice. but i just dont see the point in valentines day. or maybe i'm just bitter?

im loving that picture... :) that i made.

song of the day - a little bit longer by the jonas brothers.



its been a boring day. very boring. i should be studying,but i'd rather not. :/
i'm in an iffy mood. and as steinz has said, my piss is getting heated. :(

ugh. idk whats wrong with me today. :(

WOWZA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

song of the day: decode - paramore.


holyholyholyholyholyCRAP,dudes.
its been a while,eh? :)

alooooooooooot has happened since i last wrote!

me and nick,are no more. :P he has a girlfriend who he loves,which makes me happy. me and him are as close as ever. best friends. i still think about when we were together,and i get happy,but i get sad too. i mean,i really fell hard for him. i dont still like him,no. but he was one of the best boyfriends-type-thing that ive ever had... but its over,and im happy. we're best friends now,which is more important. :)

AND! brandon asked me to semi last month.. :D it was fucking fantastic! i dont think my heart as ever beated so fast. it speeds up whenever im around him,it speeds up when he smiles,when he looks at me. it speeds up even when i think about him.. like now. its going like 7832709436 miles an hour.. no doubt. hes just so ugh. :)

but anyway,semi was awesome. :) when he asked me,it was SO cute. :) so we were at lunch and he was talking to my friends emily and josh,down the table from where i was. and i heard the,they were like ''go ask her,gogogogogoooo!" so,naturally,i was curious. so when i saw him walking over to me i turned my head,pretending to talk to whoever i was with. then he comes over and taps me on the shoulder.so i turned around. and hes like

"are you going to semi?"

me: "yup,why?"

brnadon: "well..wanna go with me? (insert blushing cutie here)"

me: "(stunned...i just nod. alot. and smile. alot. and blush. alot.)"

and he walked away. and it was amazing. and emily,josh,chels,and my other friend danielle basically attacked me with "AWWW!" and "OMG THAT WAS SO CUTE ARE YOU EXSCITED" and it was perfect. xD so the next night was semi. and i got there,and not long after brandon got there. and just.. as soon as i saw him a smile just erupted on my face. i couldnt help it. immidiate reaction,i guess.

but i had so much fun.. it was amazing. for every slow song that played,he held me so tight,i almost couldnt breathe.. but that could've been just me. who knows?

in any case,we've gotten pretty close. we flirt alot now,but its pretty subtle.

anyway enough about brandon. ive rambled enough. :)


theres been a few ups and downs with my friends,but we're all good. everyone loves everyone.. and i love danielles boyfriend kurt. cause hes a ginger. and hes so sweet. :) she said i could marry him. but i just wanna bang him. its all good though. :D aahhaa. im a loser. :)

so thats basically it..youre all up to date. :) for now anyway.


you know you love me!
xoxo,
VG. <3

: )

Song of the day: Come on over - Jessica Simpson


Sooooooo. Good mood today. :)

I'm hanging out with Nick almost ALL week. :D It's gonna be great fun. I caught him looking at me today at lunch,and I stuck my tongue out at him and he smiled at me. SMILED. I mean seriously,usually he'll make a face back.But no,he smiled. What a creep.


I feel the need to put some shoutouts here. Dunno why,just kinda feel like it. :P

Chelsea/Juno/Kels/Stoner/ - i looooove you,little sis! :) you know if you ever need to talk,i'm always here for you! and remember , there ain't no party like an alcoholic party! & we only got four minutes.Chicka-chicka.

Ryan/Steinz/Red/TOmato Bisque/Bleeker/Fire Crotch - duuuuuudddeeeee. i love you,brother! never change,or i just MIGHT have to kill you! (& i cannot WAIT for our roadtrip!)

Emily/Boner/Bones/Boney/Emmy B/Boney M/Lia - fuck our lives,eh? i think that speaks for itself. :) love yooooou baybay!

Josh/Joshie Ray/JR/Jawah/JW/Joshie - you don't have blogger,but im saying hello anyways! :) you're a good kid,don't ever change. i love you,little bro!


^ those four upthere,are my best friends. i wouldn't go a day without them. i COULDNT go a day without them! they're all special to me in different ways,and i love them to peices! :)



live large and laugh loud!

xoxo,
VIDEOGIRL.

SQUAD MITHERINE!

Song of the day: Driveway - Miley Cyrus


Okay so, Ryan told me that two of our friends like eachother. [Michael and Katherine,two complete nerds who I love.] So,he told me that he and Chels were gonna get them together,and I wanted in. So, Chels,Raves,our friend Steckey and myself are called Squad Mitherine. [Michael-Katherine.]


As excited as I am,it just goes to show that everyone is starting to double up lately.Whatever,I'm not bothered.



THIS WEEKEND IS GONNA BE AMAAAAAAAZING! Wanna know why? I have THREE parties! YAY! :D

Friday - Party Bus for Steckley's birthday. (For those who don't know what a party bus is,it's this MASSIVE bus thats all tricked out with flashy lights and leather seats and a big screen tv AND SURROUND SOUND! :D) Anyway,after the party bus,I have to race down the street to my friend Megan's house for the tailend of her party.

Saturday - my friend Erika's birthday party! It's gonna be a blast,cause Brandon might be there... :D And also,it's gonna be a dance party. Everybody knows I love to break it down Newfie style. xD Just ask Emily's camper and her Jonas Brothers CD. Yeah,don't ask. Please. :]



Soooooo,I haven't been talking to Chelsea since friday. :( I miss my sisterrrrr.


I really want an apple,so I'm gonna go get one.

Peace,love,music,and whatever else makes you happy!

xoxo,
videogirl.

Why are boys so stupid?

Song of the day: Leave the Pieces by The Wreckers.


-

So,officially horrible mood. I woke up this morning,knowing it was Saturday and I could just relax all day. I was feeling pretty good,up until an hour ago when I was in my room looking through old pictures and came across one of Brandon. Then I started to think about him,and now I feel rotten. I was supposed to go to Chelsea's [The Masked] tonight and he was gonna be there,and CHels and Emily were gonna talk to him then,but Chels had to cancel because she got lost at the University and oh my.

I think fat's playing a trick on me. Every window of oportunity that there's ever been , have been slammed shut and boarded up. It's as if God doesn't want me and Brandon together. It feels as though it's not meant to be,when I've been hoping,praying that it would be.

It's like I said to Emily. I think I'm jinxed. Everytime there's a fully open oportunity for her and Chels to talk to Brandon,it closes up. Everytime I start to get in a decent mood,memories come rushing back and I feel like crap. :/ I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so lost with this situation,you wouldn't even believe. And if God decides NOT to be an asshole and puts me and Brandon together,what do I do about Nick? I still care about him alot,and I don't want to just drop him on his ass like he did to me so many times before.





I guess I'm just meant to be miserable my whole life.

videogirl.

hmm.

Song of the day: The Best THing - Relient K



soooo i wrote a new poem/song/thingymajiggy. i wrote it for...well. theyll know who they are :)


[i][b]nobody gets me
the way that you do.
if ever tehre's a problem,
you're the one i go to.

we talk about everything,
there's laughs and theres tears.
as long as your by my side,
there are no fears.

we never get bored,
we're always so sure,
we would dance around
as the rain would pour.

because its always friends like you,
that know the real me.
and i'll forever know,
how close we'll be.[/b][/i]


so there it is. its kinda rocky and needs editing,but yeah. comments?







me and emily hung out tonight and almost got attacked by a moose. please dont ask questions. :P some things are better off unknown. and also, in other news, im wondering if me and nick will ever end up together. its a possibilty,but its a difficult sitatuin. he's younger and a little shorter and none of my friends really like him. i think its because they dont really know him like i do. and the brandon situation aswell. he's friends with basically all of my friends,and he's taller but still younger. chelsea and emily haven't been able to talk to him yet,but hopefully i'll know something soon.


ive always wondered if theres REALLY someone out there for everybody. sure,people get married and stuff,but just because you have alot in common and you feel comfortable with this person and they make you feel good,doesnt mean you're in love. i don't believe in love anymore,since ive gotten my heart stomped on so many times. people believe in soul mates, but is there really such thing? i just feel so awkward when im around my friends and their boyfriends/girlfriends. i feel left out that i dont have anybody. it's upsetting and quite annoying at times.


sorry for the ranting...again. :/


peace.love.music.
xoxo,

[b]ViDE0GiRl[/b] ♥