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Song of the day: Come on over - Jessica Simpson


Sooooooo. Good mood today. :)

I'm hanging out with Nick almost ALL week. :D It's gonna be great fun. I caught him looking at me today at lunch,and I stuck my tongue out at him and he smiled at me. SMILED. I mean seriously,usually he'll make a face back.But no,he smiled. What a creep.


I feel the need to put some shoutouts here. Dunno why,just kinda feel like it. :P

Chelsea/Juno/Kels/Stoner/ - i looooove you,little sis! :) you know if you ever need to talk,i'm always here for you! and remember , there ain't no party like an alcoholic party! & we only got four minutes.Chicka-chicka.

Ryan/Steinz/Red/TOmato Bisque/Bleeker/Fire Crotch - duuuuuudddeeeee. i love you,brother! never change,or i just MIGHT have to kill you! (& i cannot WAIT for our roadtrip!)

Emily/Boner/Bones/Boney/Emmy B/Boney M/Lia - fuck our lives,eh? i think that speaks for itself. :) love yooooou baybay!

Josh/Joshie Ray/JR/Jawah/JW/Joshie - you don't have blogger,but im saying hello anyways! :) you're a good kid,don't ever change. i love you,little bro!


^ those four upthere,are my best friends. i wouldn't go a day without them. i COULDNT go a day without them! they're all special to me in different ways,and i love them to peices! :)



live large and laugh loud!

xoxo,
VIDEOGIRL.

SQUAD MITHERINE!

Song of the day: Driveway - Miley Cyrus


Okay so, Ryan told me that two of our friends like eachother. [Michael and Katherine,two complete nerds who I love.] So,he told me that he and Chels were gonna get them together,and I wanted in. So, Chels,Raves,our friend Steckey and myself are called Squad Mitherine. [Michael-Katherine.]


As excited as I am,it just goes to show that everyone is starting to double up lately.Whatever,I'm not bothered.



THIS WEEKEND IS GONNA BE AMAAAAAAAZING! Wanna know why? I have THREE parties! YAY! :D

Friday - Party Bus for Steckley's birthday. (For those who don't know what a party bus is,it's this MASSIVE bus thats all tricked out with flashy lights and leather seats and a big screen tv AND SURROUND SOUND! :D) Anyway,after the party bus,I have to race down the street to my friend Megan's house for the tailend of her party.

Saturday - my friend Erika's birthday party! It's gonna be a blast,cause Brandon might be there... :D And also,it's gonna be a dance party. Everybody knows I love to break it down Newfie style. xD Just ask Emily's camper and her Jonas Brothers CD. Yeah,don't ask. Please. :]



Soooooo,I haven't been talking to Chelsea since friday. :( I miss my sisterrrrr.


I really want an apple,so I'm gonna go get one.

Peace,love,music,and whatever else makes you happy!

xoxo,
videogirl.

Why are boys so stupid?

Song of the day: Leave the Pieces by The Wreckers.


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So,officially horrible mood. I woke up this morning,knowing it was Saturday and I could just relax all day. I was feeling pretty good,up until an hour ago when I was in my room looking through old pictures and came across one of Brandon. Then I started to think about him,and now I feel rotten. I was supposed to go to Chelsea's [The Masked] tonight and he was gonna be there,and CHels and Emily were gonna talk to him then,but Chels had to cancel because she got lost at the University and oh my.

I think fat's playing a trick on me. Every window of oportunity that there's ever been , have been slammed shut and boarded up. It's as if God doesn't want me and Brandon together. It feels as though it's not meant to be,when I've been hoping,praying that it would be.

It's like I said to Emily. I think I'm jinxed. Everytime there's a fully open oportunity for her and Chels to talk to Brandon,it closes up. Everytime I start to get in a decent mood,memories come rushing back and I feel like crap. :/ I don't know what to do anymore. I'm so lost with this situation,you wouldn't even believe. And if God decides NOT to be an asshole and puts me and Brandon together,what do I do about Nick? I still care about him alot,and I don't want to just drop him on his ass like he did to me so many times before.





I guess I'm just meant to be miserable my whole life.

videogirl.

hmm.

Song of the day: The Best THing - Relient K



soooo i wrote a new poem/song/thingymajiggy. i wrote it for...well. theyll know who they are :)


[i][b]nobody gets me
the way that you do.
if ever tehre's a problem,
you're the one i go to.

we talk about everything,
there's laughs and theres tears.
as long as your by my side,
there are no fears.

we never get bored,
we're always so sure,
we would dance around
as the rain would pour.

because its always friends like you,
that know the real me.
and i'll forever know,
how close we'll be.[/b][/i]


so there it is. its kinda rocky and needs editing,but yeah. comments?







me and emily hung out tonight and almost got attacked by a moose. please dont ask questions. :P some things are better off unknown. and also, in other news, im wondering if me and nick will ever end up together. its a possibilty,but its a difficult sitatuin. he's younger and a little shorter and none of my friends really like him. i think its because they dont really know him like i do. and the brandon situation aswell. he's friends with basically all of my friends,and he's taller but still younger. chelsea and emily haven't been able to talk to him yet,but hopefully i'll know something soon.


ive always wondered if theres REALLY someone out there for everybody. sure,people get married and stuff,but just because you have alot in common and you feel comfortable with this person and they make you feel good,doesnt mean you're in love. i don't believe in love anymore,since ive gotten my heart stomped on so many times. people believe in soul mates, but is there really such thing? i just feel so awkward when im around my friends and their boyfriends/girlfriends. i feel left out that i dont have anybody. it's upsetting and quite annoying at times.


sorry for the ranting...again. :/


peace.love.music.
xoxo,

[b]ViDE0GiRl[/b] ♥

wise words....

Song of the day: Cry for you - September

Quote: Dont you wish you were a sloth. In a world where nothing matters, everythings mellow, everythings cool, everythings safe, nobody bothers you, you donty have time to both anybody else, you spend your life just going, no worries, ever.You just hang from the tree and look around.

true words,spoken by my giner-haired brother Ryan,from The Raven's Nest. He is seriously one of the best friends I've had in a long time,and I love him to peices.He's always there with wise words,and helpful advice. Thanks,bro!



Anywho,things are better today. Me and Nick,we're cool. He doesn't ask me about Josh anymore,which I'm relieved for. Nick was supposed to come over today,but his baby brother has food poisoning and he had to stay home. At times I really wish I could kill Nick,but sometimes he's really sweet. So instead,he asked me to come over tomorrow after school,and I think I might.I still really like him,weather he chooses to notice or not.Whatever,as long as we're friends I'm happy. And besides that point,his little brother is the cutest. :) Also,if you wish to know the exact way I feel about Nick,I suggest you look up the lyrics/listen to Better in Time by Leona Lewis.

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...WOW!?

Who woulda thought that Tokio Hotel and the Jonas Brothers would EVER be seen in the same picture together. Nevertheless,who woulda thought that they HIT IT OFF!? Wowzaaaaa. I love those bands though. :D




Well,my two best friends/sisters, Emily [Endangered Sanity] and Chelsea [The Masked], have decided they were gonna talk to Brandon for me. (FYI:Brandon's the guy who's girlfriend had me break up with him for her.) They haven't told me what they are gonna say to him,but aparently if I know,it'll be awkward. :S Meh,whatever. He'll find out eventually that I've basically been in love with him for the past 4 years. I know love's a big word and I'm really not sure if I'm in it. I've been in it,oh yes. Yesyesyes. But right now?Not so sure. Could just be puppy love,but who knows?Not me.


I have a masssssssssive bruise on my arm. Why? EMILY BIT ME. She fuggin' bit me.
But it's okay,I still love her. :D She's my little sister. :)


peace out,cubscouts.
xoxo,

videogirl.

Rotten mood. >:[

Song of the day: Hot N Cold by Katy Perry.


kso. its been a while.

lots of shit going on... lots of BULLshit. lots of GUY bullshit.


so... ive had a crush on this guy i know since grade 6. about three weeks ago,i had the displeasure of being the messanger for his girlfriend,wanting to rbeak up with him. i felt horrible,but it only made me like him more.

now,the newest guy drama. i had a sort of.. year-long fling with this guy named nick last year. i really really liked him,and it was all in secret. we didnt talk in school,but we'd hold hands on the bus and if i was over to his house after school,there was alot of kissing and not alot of talking. but this year,he's changed. he likes this girl named fallon. so does my bestbestbest guy friend josh. so,they both asked her out and she denied them. but then,nick tells me on the bus yesterday that he asked fallon to a movie tonight. aparently,she said yes. i told this information to josh,and he didnt take it so well. he was upset all day,and snapped at anyone who talked to him.

the catch? nick lied.

my other friend brad told me that he didnt ask fallon out for this weekend. the f ucking bastard lied right to me face,but it wouldnt be the first time..

nick asks me on the bus, "whats wrong with josh?"

i said i wasnt going to tell him. so he said "if he doesnt stop being mad at me,im gonna ask him to fight about it on tuesday."

i snapped. "YOU FUCKING ASK HIM TO FIGHT AND YOU WLL NEVER EVER TALK TO ME AGAIN,YOU GOT THAT!?"

i really dont know what i ever saw in him. he completely distroyed my mood today. josh is like my little brother,and i love him to bits. i dont want him to be hurt because of a stupid asshole who lied.


.. sorry for the rant. i had to get it out somehow.

thanks for listening.

xoxo,
video girl.